funny how sometimes the very people that u seldom meet just can talk right thru' to ur heart and make u feel 'awww yes! tts exactly wad i was thinking!!' yes shar thank u for today though it wasnt long.. it was one great movie n im glad i watched it with u. i almost cried know! sigh knowing how art mirrors life yet knowingly that the end will nvr nvr be the same. false hope! yes tts wad we said. i sat at that same busstop..(yes that one!!) and read ur short letter. im quite upset with myself for having stopped writing.. to u, neh, fish and so many more. i mean.. what the hell have i been busy with except wallowing in self-pity. looked up at the sky n saw e moon n stars tt i ever so often went to e beach to admire. almost a yr since ive been there. memories just came floodin back. sat for almost n hour. and con.. felt like an idiot for not knowin wad happen. dont worry abt such jackasses. (refer to bitch poem) u know i envy u.. both of u are practically married. i mean how cool is cooking together. hah just tt i know all of u tt are attached are super attached (!?) to ur other halves. which i can nvr do and think of. maybe tt explains my being single and unavailable. too engaged with my personal private life to share too much with one single person. opening too much to be exposed to hurt. im too tired (not physically but mentally n emotionally n spiritually) to even go to that or any other more depressing stuff goin on..

i know im mad (everybody tells me that everyday) but echo that new scent or cologne (did i spell it right) with that SUPER cute/hot guy as e model is really nice! the bottle is damn cool too. urgh too bad i have no one to splurge on (in any case i wud splurge on myself!!) but hey its really damn cool. im considerin to get one for myself. screw it whether its a cologne or wad im mad remember? im entitled to this. and yes matthew mcConaughey is damn damn damn damn hot. yes i need a bowl. BIG bowl. -swooned- *ditz* u would realise how both of them look similar in impression sense (as zx said) enough said. i need to go figure how to satisfy my need to shop.. with no money. dang!