i get it. i think i get it. how some people obsess over soccer and their boyfriends, fuss over baking, being religious, squeal over some teenybopper. i get it.

at least they have something to look forward to. i think to lead two separate lives, and having to smile in both really really takes a lot. a whole helluva effort.

not judging. it's envy.

i hear the sounds of cracks.