do you get that feeling.. the urge to need to blog? it's perhaps reasons like these where one needs to articulate something yet can't tell anyone, or rather find someone to say it to, that this space still exists. for its mere mediocrity and words that does not make sense to anybody. it exists entirely for me. to make sense of at the end of everything. yet where does one find comfort in all these senseless chaos? where is the end of the beginning, and the start of another? it's perhaps not that easy to burn one's bridges. the sting in our eyes will always remind us it once was there. it will be easier if as shakespeare said our lives were as if it were on stage, then at least at the end.. exeunt would suffice. maybe not.

i saw a secret. and in the background this song was playing. and for a moment, i was relieved. relieved that i was not alone in the world. in that instant, i felt someone understood. but then, it all still fades away. closure? i dare not say i have one. hope? i dare say.. it still makes me a halfempty person. perhaps more, but i won't admit it. so i may not be the happiest person you'd know, but i'm glad i still make it through the days.

Life is beautiful
We love until we die

When you run into my arms,
We steal a perfect moment.
Let the monsters see you smile,
Let them see you smilling.

Do I hold you too tightly?
When will the hurt kick in?

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated.
We barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Yeah, life is beautiful.
Our hearts, they beat and break.

When you run away from harm,
Will you run back into my arms,
Like you did when you were young?
Will you come back to me?

I will hold you tightly
When the hurting kicks in.

Life is beautiful, but it's complicated,
we barely make it.
We don't need to understand,
There are miracles, miracles.

Stand where you are.
We let all these moments pass us by.

It's amazing where I'm standing,
There's alot that we can give.
This is ours just for the moment,
There's alot that we can give.

..::.vega 4.::..