we shall make a pact. and i will try my utmost best to keep it. we shall never ever ever talk about him ever again. yes and i said try. forgive me if i cant control this anger in me and rant it on u folks. yes fine fine. go ahead with your 'hate-fiona-with-all-my-might' plan. i really couldnt care less. out of sight out of mind. so let's just keep it that way. and i say it again.. i try. o common' fellas u hafta gimme more credit than this.. i have managed to stay how i am for like the longest time possible. i need my facet to burst at times u know. this may not be a place to rant my angst and stuff but who gives a shit anyway? i mean i started this for the very main reason of letting it all out (right hun..?) and why should i be constraint to only recording happy thoughts. and then again maybe i do not have any to remember. i am but this angry frustrated girl who really has no place to turn to cos every other place.. there is judgement. ok i am goin nowhere with this.. maybe one day i will find my solace with/in you. please come soon..? it's tiring to fly one-winged... it really is..

in other news.. i finally bought that skirt. yes that freaking ex skirt which i know is not worth the money n i probably look fat in it. but yes i bought it (del,man,cel, u guys no longer need to see me try it n mope cos i can wear it now!) and i met ting n fei! hah din even realise u guys were next to me.. really glad to see u... cept for the lil' bit of news u brought me.. but yes (refer to above) n yes i will go down to plates soon to try out the food! sakae was great today. i probably spent all my money in one day. yes actually i did.. so its back to bread n apple juice(with aloe vera. its one damn cool drink in sch n at home!) i need the diet anyway..... i shall stop grousing... oh n just one more bit.. i had the worse train ride ever. del.. u saw it.. imagine it the whole way home thank goodness the train was crowded.. -see.no.evil- okok... one more one more.. i seldom have this much to talk about.. dav,ben, merv.. all u guys.. hang in there n chill. losing someone is inevitable.. i've been there eons ago.. applicable to each of ur case. just remember.. if the Lord brings you to it.. He will bring you thru' it... that's His promise..