fluttering around like butterflies to nectar
she danced her life and sang the song
twirling with scarfs as the wind smiles
her hair caught in the motion laughing
scents of beauty drops of jupiter
she tastes the rain and tears
spin and spin spinning on and on
loses momentum in the dark
shadows start to fall and sneer
groping in the silence confused and lost
long and winding no end to end
on and on and on and on
she's a stranger to sympathy and gaiety
breaking down n crumbling
slowly she looks up and tries to smile
weak as it is useless as it seems
she needs the adrenalin rush.. once again

this is one super disorganised crap ive ever written. imagine how chaotic my thoughts are right now. so many things yet words just dont form quite consistently in sequence. unable to fit into the picture. i tell myself. no im really not bothered by it. again and again i repeat it to myself. and yet again. i lose it. i lose this battle. i always have. so whats new. yet another one man operation. -screams-